A reminder of how big we really are…

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This year will make four years living in this beautiful city of Nashville, TN! It has been one of the greatest adventures I have been on, as well as one of the toughest. When I first moved here one of the hardest things was trying to connect. I was desperate to meet others in hopes that they would invite me into their adventures, into their tribes and journeys. At the end of the day, It was all quite exhausting. Why? Well because I felt I needed to change who I was in order to be the missing piece in everyone else’ puzzle. I worked so hard everyday in hopes that someone would find value in what I had to offer. In the process I began losing who I was. Losing focus on why I came to this amazing city in the first place. It felt like there needed to be a destination, but in reality it was all about the journey all along. It wasn’t about trying to fit in, but rather staying true to who I am. I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t disheartening getting no responses to phone calls, emails, invitations and texts. What was I doing wrong? What can I change or do? What happened?  I started believing the lie. The lie that coming here was a terrible decision. The dream of making music and movies was a disaster waiting to happen. I began to feel like I was sinking in what I thought was the promised land.

Then something happened. I focused on just being me. Focused on the things that really mattered in my life. It wasn’t about being the puzzle piece in someone else’ journey, but rather about being present in the journey designed for me. That’s when it felt like fresh air in my lungs. It was in doing life with those I never thought I would, that brought the greatest sense of home for me. I started feeling like I belonged here more and more. Truth is the doors I was knocking on were not the right doors for me. The folks I thought I needed to be accepted by, are not the ones meant to be in my story, and that’s ok. I started reaching out to support others in their endeavors and that same support was given back. It all just started changing, and it was beautiful!  Some say I don’t have what it takes to make great music, and others continue to help my music find a home. It is amazing what begins to happen when you remain faithful to what you have been created to do in the first place! and work your ass off doing it of course! I’m guessing you are probably on the same boat, on a similar journey but on a different ocean. Stay encouraged. Stay focused. Stay true to being YOU. What has been set aside for you, will be there when you arrive. So don’t waste your time and energy on things that in the end, don’t really matter. Keep your head up and your heart in the right place.  Get out there and show some love!  I’ll be seeing you soon. Cheers!

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Life, it will never be perfect. It will never really be the “right” time. You will probably never have it “all together”, and that’s ok. The whole point is to get up every morning and live the heck out of your day! Is it not? You will never have another opportunity to live out “today”. So make the best of it. Make some incredible memories. Take a risk. Live out loud. Go for it!

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