Well, we just got back from an amazing vacation. It was great to take some time off and do nothing…It was everything and more. My brain took a break, my body indulged in traditional criolla foods, spent way too much time under the sun, and loved my wife and crew more and more. It was trully a blessing. On the flight back I took some time to think. Think of what is next for fuser…I realized the idea of writing a book is not time yet, but I will c0ntinue to journal and document key moments in my life and soon enough it will be time…I am still not the best leader I can be but was totally humbled by how great of a team I have at LPC. Major “ups” for the production and worship band!!!

I think I am gonna keep chipping away at the film I’ve been writing for some time now and let that flow and take its shape and story…I love being creative, and starting new projects but with all that comes great responsibility…New tunes are stirring in my soul,and in the next few months they will go on paper and rough demos on garage band…I am playing with the idea of a “fuser EP”…not sure how that will pan out and sound like…But why not right? There are some words and melodies I’ve never shared with anyone…I think I just may turn the lamp on, and let you see…Sometimes you gotta stop looking for the created masterpiece, get your own blank canvas and paint on it…What that will look like? I am not sure. But I am always up for a good journey. So for the fun of this blog, if you were my creative manager, what would you like to see me do next?

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Zion Max Santoyo has been a blessing to us. It’s been priceless seeing Diego interact with him and love on his brother. It’s awesome. I will admit though, on them days when Zion cries and keeps crying, and cries some more…it can be a little frustrating…Reina is the true rockstar though. She is up every 4 to 5 hrs to feed Zion, change his diaper, and just be an amazing mom to him. I help out but it’s nothing like mama. I will admit I have gotten better at changing diapers. Getting baby crap on my hands is less and less everyday…So I am proud of that. Baby #3 has been mentioned but I won’t tell you when…LOL…Yes we want a big family. When I am up at 3am (which isn’t too often) I think, ” ok, maybe 2 kids is enough”, but when the boys are up during the day, screaming, running, I imagine 2 more…When Diego and I are at the pool on the weekends I imagine 4 kids running and jumping in the pool. I imagine myself traveling the globe with Reina and the Santoyo tribe…These are all random thoughts right now…I guess I am just totally loving fatherhood. It’s amazing.

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The Challenge of being a dreamer is trying to sleep at night. It just seems like my mind doesn’t stop racing, creating, writing, seeing, believing there is always more. More I can do in this world…Re considering pursuit, is not an option.

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So tonight I am having a round table brainstorming session with some cool people I know. Gonna share a film idea I’ve had for a few yrs now. I am excited to see this come to life. Just indulging in another passion of mine. The art of film… We’ll see what happens. I will definitely be reaching out to directors, writers, producers and actors for advice…This will be a new hat for me.

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“the day you stop dreaming, you start dying”

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Billy Gilbert photography