So this whole week I’ve been waiting to hear back from a job that I am really excited about. I am also waiting to hear back if I got the part for the commercial Spot I auditioned for. This whole week I’ve updated my facebook and twitter status with ” waiting, waiting again, still waiting”. It gets a little impatient waiting for an answer, and hoping it is the answer I “want” it to be. I feel like I have done everything I possibly can to get those answers quick. I will admit, my prayers have been pretty selfish. Hoping God hooks me up with these gigs, cause I “need” them, and “want” them. Almost trying to convince God and sell the idea of me having this job to him. I need to feed my family, keep the lights on in our apartment, pay the bills, and make a life here in Nashville. I am pretty darn sure God knows what I need and Don’t. But my human nature just can’t see past the waiting room I am in.

This evening I was totally blessed with the words our pastor Pete Wilson shared at Crosspoint church. This morning we showed up at Crosspoint ready to engage in worship and hear the message and Zion was screaming bloody murder, courtesy of a stomach ache!  We tried to wait it out but left before the first chord was strummed. We planned to be home the rest of the evening, but we decided to try it again with Zion and go to Church after dinner. We arrived at Crosspoint pretty early. Early enough where the doors were closed, and the kids area was not quite ready yet… So we “waited” outside and sat on some cool old looking benches. It was worth the wait! Worship was great! Message opened with such a powerful video that threw my worries to the curbside! Pete shared a few words that really hit home for me. To my surprise tonight’s message was about WAITING!LOL.

Here’s my rundown of a few things  Pete shared, wish I could share it all…I am terrible at taking notes sometimes…

There is an undeniable relationship between Crisis and Hope. “Sometimes we hate waiting cause we feel powerless, Especially when we are control freaks.”It sucks when we are in a hurry and it seems God is not! The crazy thing is, Waiting is when we find our deepest and truest purpose!..”gulp!.

“We want everything God has to offer, just not his calendar. We often care more about comfort, then character.” We need to accept his timing!  Waiting room- God will allow suffering, pain, and crisis in order to detach HOPE from other things and attach it to himself. We need to wait and hope, even when it feels there is no reason to. God is the God of this Universe and I am not.

I realize there are so many things I want for my life. So many things that I feel will help me get to the next stage in my life. I don’t know how we will make it through, how we will pay our bills, how we will achieve the plans we have… We’re waiting on God, and having Faith and Hope in him alone, and having joy in everything we face right now. I am excited about what will come about in the next few weeks. Whether I get the answer I hope I will, or not. God is God, and he knows all. He knows what we need, and what we don’t.

-fuser+…”waiting”…