Category: Cambodia

Writing a… book?

Sometimes I feel like Reina (my wife) is the voice of God, and other times just her own voice. She is my toughest critic but also my greatest fan cheering me on. I’ve always been known for being a storyteller. My Dad is a storyteller so I guess I inherited the gift of talking…alot.

There are many things I remember from my childhood, my teen years, college and other random memories. I try and journal as many of them as possible and others are encrypted in my brain in full detail, which I never forget. As this journey continues we live on and more memories are made. Not all my memories are great ones. Some of them are full of pain, loss, and what may seem as misfortunes. But I have learned from every moment, and every road that seemed abandoned lead me to an amazing season in my life.  So….once upon a time my sister randomly said, “You should write a book,” which I thought was crazy.  As time went on, and years down the road my wife Reina said, ” babe! you should write all these memories down and write a book”. Ok, maybe I should listen?

This is my issue. I am not the greatest writer. I don’t enjoy typing as much as maybe I should. Being a writer wasn’t part of my plan but I wouldn’t mind sharing these stories and memories that I have. I think many people may relate to them and hopefully be inspired by moments that once seemed to be misfortunes but became redemptive seasons in my life. I felt I couldn’t write a book without there being a grand finale or conclusion…but the more I think about it…It’s a journey that will continue and needs to be told as we stroll along. Wouldn’t you say so? So it would basically be…

Stories about  growing up in Chicago’s Pilsen neighborhoods, raised in a latino family, spending all my School yrs in the Catholic education system, almost losing my Dad at a young age, surviving to tell the tales of the gang infested streets, College life, marriage, almost divorcing, losing my hearing, having kids, travels to Cambodia, Argentina and the world, working for a church by day, rocking with my band at night, seeing first hand how God connects all the dots and pieces in my messy life, and so much more…I just wanna tell you guys everything now!

So I know it’s gonna continue to be a work in progress and I need tons of help, guidance, advice, suggestions, professional editing and constructive criticism and you can only imagine how much more… So bear with me, have patience and I will get it done!

So what do you recommend I do first?

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Thecreativechaos syndrome…

This album cover visualy describes what goes on in my head...

It gets crazy inside my head sometimes. So much I wanna do, so much I love to do, so much I wanna keep doing, and so much I have to say no to. I am just not sure it’s all possible or not. I hate saying no, and maybe that’s a start for me. I am a story teller by nature, it’s in my Santoyo blood.  I love writing stories and memories from my childhood…. I love films. I have a few film ideas that I create per week. Some I write down, others drift off into the sunset on my drive back home. I love writing music, creating melodies and hooks. Sometimes I hear a full orchestra in my head with syncopated percussion and ambient sounds in the background. I love being on stage performing with my band!!! It’s a rush!!! As far as I can remember I always enjoyed the thought of being an actor.  I enjoy the challenge of  becoming a character and bring him to life for the camera.  It’s awesome!I love being in a production environment. There is this urgency in the air to create a masterpiece through shooting, editing and designing…

I am passionate about people. We love being in community, organizing community, leading community anything having to do with passionate people.  I love to talk and talk and talk and talk. I enjoy listening to people talk about their dreams and in return I enjoy encouraging them to share about how those dreams can become a reality. I love talking about Jesus…It’s a deep passion of mine. I am fascinated by his words, his life, his friends, his conversations and his parties. I love to entertain people through food. We’re always inviting strangers over for dinner…It’s just something we love to do…

A piece of my heart is in Cambodia. I’ve been quietly working on a huge arts movement that would impact 3rd world countries… Now do you see my dilemma? Yes I know…Focus on one thing. Focus on one thing. Focus on one thing…It’s easier said then done my friends… Can all this vital parts work together for something I am not seeing?

I was fortunate enough to sit with this totally rad dude who lives in Franklin TN… He’s a cultural architect, an artist, an entrepreneur, a painter, an author, a chef…this dude  rocks!  It was truly  an honor that he would take time to sit down for coffee  and talk with me… I was in desperate need of some creative advice and I sure got it! There has to be a core to my creative chaos and madness. It is all stemming from somewhere. The question is, what is that eye of the storm in my creative passion? How do I narrow it down and corner it! I need order…Big time!!! It’s something I am working on…

What are your thoughts and Insight? Anyone else suffering from Creativechaosthatneedsorder?

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Didn’t make the cut…

Here is a track WE recorded but it  never quite made the full length album…Check it out below …Let me know your thoughts on it… Like it, hate it, crush it, burn it, just don’t ignore it.

Click right HERE and listen “Home

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