I think it’s really important sometimes to just disconnect and re-charge.  When there are great opportunities and challenges in your forecast it’s important to just sit back, relax, breath in and go full force. We’re excited for the future, cause we’re confident in the decisions we are making now. If you don’t know how to live now, how can you expect something great in your future?

Many times I’ll just sit around the house with Diego and begin to dream for him. I see the potential he has now as a child, and how that will grow into more. Or how he jams out to the songs I sing as if they were the greatest tunes ever written! Everyday I sit here in our apartment and look around at all the cool stuff Reina is designing and making, and see potential for greatness in her. Zion is only 7 months and I can see the great things in store for his future.  The things we dream and foresee may not be here now, but we’re living as they are and they are on their way.

I’ll pace back and forth at the apartment with song ideas, film ideas, book ideas and try to fit them all into a piece of paper. LOL. I see potential for great things and believe they shall come to pass. I think many times other people believe in me more then I believe in myself…I am a work in progress for myself. My prayer and thoughts are that in all that we do, we give honor to Christ the ONE and only in all things.

I am taking some overdue time off from blogging and facebooking  to re charge.  Not sure how long this time off will be. It could be a few days, a few weeks, months, a yr…But please know I shall return. I am Gonna sit back, breath in, meditate on truth, on faith, worship and love. I will  write, create, sing, design, re build and return when I am ready for the next season of this journey and  I look forward in connecting with you great folks all over the globe. For those who read my blogs, thoughts and random left hooks, please continue to leave your comments, your thoughts and prayers. Feel free to take over my page with your thoughts, jokes, random nonsense, encouragement and comments, I will continue to read them from time to time. Lots to do my friends, lot’s of stories to live and tell, lot’s of dreams to build, see you soon.

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Hasta luego y hasta la victoria siempre…

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Check it out…Here’s a sneak peek at some of Reinalisa’s(my wife) art work. These items are not for sale…yet.  But please let us know your thoughts…I’ll get some Home design decor pics up  as well, as soon as I get clearance.. So proud of my girl!!! More art, designs and online store to come soon…

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Long story short! Diego had an accident this morning… He got a hold of a magic marker+put it in his mouth+ ran across the room+bumped into a pillow=Laceration (Intraoral)… I Ran out the house and rushed him  to the Children’s hospital at Vanderbilt... That hospital is full of amazing people.  “Heroes”.  I appreciate everything they did for my boy this am. Doctors feared he may have cut an vital artery right behind the tonsil area, scary!…So tests were run,  needles, IV’s, meds, x-ray scans, fancy vocabulary…but Diego is a freakn rock star!!! All is good…No Surgery needed and GOD is so good and faithful. Moments like this really show you the love you have for your children, and the things that really matter. I am so grateful for my crew. Blessed to be a husband and a Dad. No shame in tears for the one’s we truly and passionately love. It was a tough day though…

We’re now at home, winding down after a morning full of emotional roller coasters. But God knows all better then we do…Thanks to all of our family who kept us in prayer this morning!! Oh the joys of parenthood…

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Doctor: “Is this your little brother?       Fuser: ” No mam, he’s my son”…LOL.

Sometimes you just gotta walk away from it…Doesn’t mean you’ve given up, it’s just forcing something that isn’t ready to be revealed. When you drag extra stuff on your journey it just makes it unpleasant on your feet. Take only what you need.  Most of the time the things we “want” are useless in our journey. Why am I saying all this? Not sure? Maybe “YOU!!, yeah YOU” whoever that is  needs to read this.  When we focus on the irrelevant we lose all touch with humanity. You gotta stay true to “YOU”, but never compromise the truth, and in the process engage the culture. You’re world will be totally different…Trust me, I am taking my own medicine and trying to smoke what I am selling. It’s a process….These are great times my friends…trust me when I say this… All is not lost, just been looking out the wrong window…Sometimes we need a swift kick in the ass to get our act together!!!

Don’t force what isn’t working, it’s cheating out the best of you, being ignored…

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“misfortunes make Giants” coming soon….

So last night I had this craziness of a dream. I was in this abandoned house with my lil bro Alex…There were tons of dogs in that house…Why? not sure…But in the dream I broke the top of my wrist really bad…So somehow I found some kind of metal brace on the floor and I put it around my wrist to help hold my bones in place. I picked up a few rusted nails and I stuck them into the top of my wrist to help keep the brace on…yeah, I know it’s nuts…towards the end of my dream I pulled the nails out and was worried about infection…Right at that moment I felt my arm get really cold…Reina then shows up and says, “your arm looks weird”…in the dream I being to panic and really think I should go to the hospital….(this is so silly, i can’t believe I remember all of this)….I remember waking up sometime around 3am and my arm had fallen asleep…and this morning I woke up with a HUGE mosquito bite on my wrist…well I hope it was  mosquito and not some weird tropical spider.

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have u had any crazy dreams you remember?…share…I left the part out about chasing sharks in a submarine…and getting attacked by a giant leech….LOL

So… I am taking on a new project. I am gonna transform my garage into a production suite…a mobile one that is….I am an artist, songwriter and visionary…But right now I don’t have a space at home where I can lose myself to that….Reina, my amazing wife is an artist, Interior designer and painter…But right now she doesn’t have a space at home to lose herself to that… SO!!!! Starting this weekend I am going thru the garbage, getting rid of the stuff I don’t need and keeping the cool items of inspiration and need. If you wanna help, come on by. If you have ideas, come on by or shoot me an email. I am excited.

Once the room is set and ready, I am gonna work on an EP…yes a “fuser” EP. Until then though, lets get this creative room designed, created and built. Just gotta figure out how i can keep my garage cool? Any suggestions?

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stay tuned for the progress…what should we name the room?

Well, we just got back from an amazing vacation. It was great to take some time off and do nothing…It was everything and more. My brain took a break, my body indulged in traditional criolla foods, spent way too much time under the sun, and loved my wife and crew more and more. It was trully a blessing. On the flight back I took some time to think. Think of what is next for fuser…I realized the idea of writing a book is not time yet, but I will c0ntinue to journal and document key moments in my life and soon enough it will be time…I am still not the best leader I can be but was totally humbled by how great of a team I have at LPC. Major “ups” for the production and worship band!!!

I think I am gonna keep chipping away at the film I’ve been writing for some time now and let that flow and take its shape and story…I love being creative, and starting new projects but with all that comes great responsibility…New tunes are stirring in my soul,and in the next few months they will go on paper and rough demos on garage band…I am playing with the idea of a “fuser EP”…not sure how that will pan out and sound like…But why not right? There are some words and melodies I’ve never shared with anyone…I think I just may turn the lamp on, and let you see…Sometimes you gotta stop looking for the created masterpiece, get your own blank canvas and paint on it…What that will look like? I am not sure. But I am always up for a good journey. So for the fun of this blog, if you were my creative manager, what would you like to see me do next?

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Zion Max Santoyo has been a blessing to us. It’s been priceless seeing Diego interact with him and love on his brother. It’s awesome. I will admit though, on them days when Zion cries and keeps crying, and cries some more…it can be a little frustrating…Reina is the true rockstar though. She is up every 4 to 5 hrs to feed Zion, change his diaper, and just be an amazing mom to him. I help out but it’s nothing like mama. I will admit I have gotten better at changing diapers. Getting baby crap on my hands is less and less everyday…So I am proud of that. Baby #3 has been mentioned but I won’t tell you when…LOL…Yes we want a big family. When I am up at 3am (which isn’t too often) I think, ” ok, maybe 2 kids is enough”, but when the boys are up during the day, screaming, running, I imagine 2 more…When Diego and I are at the pool on the weekends I imagine 4 kids running and jumping in the pool. I imagine myself traveling the globe with Reina and the Santoyo tribe…These are all random thoughts right now…I guess I am just totally loving fatherhood. It’s amazing.

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The Challenge of being a dreamer is trying to sleep at night. It just seems like my mind doesn’t stop racing, creating, writing, seeing, believing there is always more. More I can do in this world…Re considering pursuit, is not an option.

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