I think it’s really important sometimes to just disconnect and re-charge.  When there are great opportunities and challenges in your forecast it’s important to just sit back, relax, breath in and go full force. We’re excited for the future, cause we’re confident in the decisions we are making now. If you don’t know how to live now, how can you expect something great in your future?

Many times I’ll just sit around the house with Diego and begin to dream for him. I see the potential he has now as a child, and how that will grow into more. Or how he jams out to the songs I sing as if they were the greatest tunes ever written! Everyday I sit here in our apartment and look around at all the cool stuff Reina is designing and making, and see potential for greatness in her. Zion is only 7 months and I can see the great things in store for his future.  The things we dream and foresee may not be here now, but we’re living as they are and they are on their way.

I’ll pace back and forth at the apartment with song ideas, film ideas, book ideas and try to fit them all into a piece of paper. LOL. I see potential for great things and believe they shall come to pass. I think many times other people believe in me more then I believe in myself…I am a work in progress for myself. My prayer and thoughts are that in all that we do, we give honor to Christ the ONE and only in all things.

I am taking some overdue time off from blogging and facebooking  to re charge.  Not sure how long this time off will be. It could be a few days, a few weeks, months, a yr…But please know I shall return. I am Gonna sit back, breath in, meditate on truth, on faith, worship and love. I will  write, create, sing, design, re build and return when I am ready for the next season of this journey and  I look forward in connecting with you great folks all over the globe. For those who read my blogs, thoughts and random left hooks, please continue to leave your comments, your thoughts and prayers. Feel free to take over my page with your thoughts, jokes, random nonsense, encouragement and comments, I will continue to read them from time to time. Lots to do my friends, lot’s of stories to live and tell, lot’s of dreams to build, see you soon.

For The Saturn Project updates, upcoming shows and news continue to visit our web page HERE.

Hasta luego y hasta la victoria siempre…

-fuser+

Check it out…Here’s a sneak peek at some of Reinalisa’s(my wife) art work. These items are not for sale…yet.  But please let us know your thoughts…I’ll get some Home design decor pics up  as well, as soon as I get clearance.. So proud of my girl!!! More art, designs and online store to come soon…

-fuser+

Long story short! Diego had an accident this morning… He got a hold of a magic marker+put it in his mouth+ ran across the room+bumped into a pillow=Laceration (Intraoral)… I Ran out the house and rushed him  to the Children’s hospital at Vanderbilt... That hospital is full of amazing people.  “Heroes”.  I appreciate everything they did for my boy this am. Doctors feared he may have cut an vital artery right behind the tonsil area, scary!…So tests were run,  needles, IV’s, meds, x-ray scans, fancy vocabulary…but Diego is a freakn rock star!!! All is good…No Surgery needed and GOD is so good and faithful. Moments like this really show you the love you have for your children, and the things that really matter. I am so grateful for my crew. Blessed to be a husband and a Dad. No shame in tears for the one’s we truly and passionately love. It was a tough day though…

We’re now at home, winding down after a morning full of emotional roller coasters. But God knows all better then we do…Thanks to all of our family who kept us in prayer this morning!! Oh the joys of parenthood…

-fuser and the crew+

Doctor: “Is this your little brother?       Fuser: ” No mam, he’s my son”…LOL.

It was never said that this journey would be easy. We always envision a glamorous entry into our dreams. The things we yearn for perfectly rapped and waiting under a tree. Sometimes it takes giving  it all up, to gain it all. Hurting to feel love. Losing to truly win. Being let down to truly help someone up. This has been by far the greatest adventure for me and my wife Reina, and of course our 2 little boys. I came across a picture I drew for her when we were young teens dating. Well we’re still young…or at least look it…I think… Could this have been a look into the future? We’re finally taking the adventure we talked about since we were young and dumb. I guess we really were onto something and we’re finally going for it. Win or Lose!

The things we worked so hard for, we left behind. The titles, the accomplishments, the material things we “valued” all left behind. For what? For this? Yep!  An adventure like no other. Every second that passes right now is a moment I can never get back again. Whether it’s tough or not, it is a valuable and priceless moment that I wish to seize.

Call us crazy, call us fools, but at the end of the day we sit back, look at each other and know this is real. It’s bitter-sweet to see people go, leave people behind, try to bring those along that wish not to, separated from those we share life continuously, not hearing from those we expected to, and hear from those we never expected to…It can be a lonely road, but when you have all that you need..must I say more? In the midst of it all, we live in great expectation of hope, love and faith and victory…

Anyone else on a journey too?

-fuser+

So… I am taking on a new project. I am gonna transform my garage into a production suite…a mobile one that is….I am an artist, songwriter and visionary…But right now I don’t have a space at home where I can lose myself to that….Reina, my amazing wife is an artist, Interior designer and painter…But right now she doesn’t have a space at home to lose herself to that… SO!!!! Starting this weekend I am going thru the garbage, getting rid of the stuff I don’t need and keeping the cool items of inspiration and need. If you wanna help, come on by. If you have ideas, come on by or shoot me an email. I am excited.

Once the room is set and ready, I am gonna work on an EP…yes a “fuser” EP. Until then though, lets get this creative room designed, created and built. Just gotta figure out how i can keep my garage cool? Any suggestions?

-fuser+

stay tuned for the progress…what should we name the room?

Well, we just got back from an amazing vacation. It was great to take some time off and do nothing…It was everything and more. My brain took a break, my body indulged in traditional criolla foods, spent way too much time under the sun, and loved my wife and crew more and more. It was trully a blessing. On the flight back I took some time to think. Think of what is next for fuser…I realized the idea of writing a book is not time yet, but I will c0ntinue to journal and document key moments in my life and soon enough it will be time…I am still not the best leader I can be but was totally humbled by how great of a team I have at LPC. Major “ups” for the production and worship band!!!

I think I am gonna keep chipping away at the film I’ve been writing for some time now and let that flow and take its shape and story…I love being creative, and starting new projects but with all that comes great responsibility…New tunes are stirring in my soul,and in the next few months they will go on paper and rough demos on garage band…I am playing with the idea of a “fuser EP”…not sure how that will pan out and sound like…But why not right? There are some words and melodies I’ve never shared with anyone…I think I just may turn the lamp on, and let you see…Sometimes you gotta stop looking for the created masterpiece, get your own blank canvas and paint on it…What that will look like? I am not sure. But I am always up for a good journey. So for the fun of this blog, if you were my creative manager, what would you like to see me do next?

-fuser+

Zion Max Santoyo has been a blessing to us. It’s been priceless seeing Diego interact with him and love on his brother. It’s awesome. I will admit though, on them days when Zion cries and keeps crying, and cries some more…it can be a little frustrating…Reina is the true rockstar though. She is up every 4 to 5 hrs to feed Zion, change his diaper, and just be an amazing mom to him. I help out but it’s nothing like mama. I will admit I have gotten better at changing diapers. Getting baby crap on my hands is less and less everyday…So I am proud of that. Baby #3 has been mentioned but I won’t tell you when…LOL…Yes we want a big family. When I am up at 3am (which isn’t too often) I think, ” ok, maybe 2 kids is enough”, but when the boys are up during the day, screaming, running, I imagine 2 more…When Diego and I are at the pool on the weekends I imagine 4 kids running and jumping in the pool. I imagine myself traveling the globe with Reina and the Santoyo tribe…These are all random thoughts right now…I guess I am just totally loving fatherhood. It’s amazing.

-fuser+

The Challenge of being a dreamer is trying to sleep at night. It just seems like my mind doesn’t stop racing, creating, writing, seeing, believing there is always more. More I can do in this world…Re considering pursuit, is not an option.

-fuser+

-fuser+

Billy Gilbert photography

There is always more room to grow. Ok, maybe not in height but in other areas of life. It’s been insanely awesome having 2 boys at home. One thing is for sure, I couldn’t  handle it without my amazing wife. She is an amazing wife and mother. Having 2 kids has it’s challenges, but I am all about that! Challenge!!!!  We will learn as we live and grow together. Just proves there is always more room to grow as a leader of my home. It is a daily adventure. Yesterday as I changed Zion’s stinky diaper I thought, wow…one day he will change mine. But until I grow completely old, my duty is to lead my boys in the best path possible and Instill in them a passionate love and desire for God’s heart. I invision them impacting the world with me, on stage, across the continent, in the streets, thru the arts…It’s a fathers dream…

After being in the hospital with Reina as they removed Zion from her body, I realized how much more amazing she is day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. It was scary seeing all these Dr’s operate on her. As I wiped her tears in that room, I felt so weak inside but did everything possible to be strong for her in the outside. Then within minutes there was a sound in the room that took all worries away. Zion’s firsts words in this world. It was amazing. He is God’s gift for us!!!  Having 2 children requires double the attention and work, but it made me realize there is so much room for us to grow as a couple, as companions and lovers.  New adventures, new words, new gestures, new jokes and dreams. There is so much more…Love my Reina more and more…

Performing in Asia was really cool. I felt like the saturn project was making moves so loud the whole earth can hear our anthems. It was cool walking out of that auditorium  to screaming fans who embraced our songs and our mission. It had it’s weirdness of course, flashing cameras and autograph signing everywhere, but it let us know we are up to something good on it’s way to being great. Arriving here to the US, we didn’t have screaming fans at the airport, nor billboards displaying “The Saturn Project Rocks!” Just proves there is so much more room to grow as an artist and a band. So much more to achieve, so much more to do and share the anthems for a broken world story. We are eternally grateful to those who have and continue to believe in our sound and what we do…the best is yet to come…

As the creative arts and worship pastor for life pointe I have a team of leaders, artists, directors and producers that I lead. There is always that challenge to be the best possible leader I can do. From time to time I drop the ball and maybe don’t lead as I am meant to lead. Just proves there is so much more room for me to grow. It is a blessing to be able to fly out from time to time with the Saturn Project to share  our talents with the world. From Cambodia to the Philippines, Europe to South America and the US. None of that is possible without the amazing  staff and teams I have the privilege of working with at LPC.  When you are encouraged to dream and follow those dreams by the people you work and experience life with, it really encourages me to be a better leader, artist and “pastor”. There is plenty of room for that…

Me and my crew live in Homestead Fl, many of my family and friends live in Chicago. I don’t have the luxury of driving over to my Mom’s for Dinner, nor hanging at the pool with my brothers and bust each others chops. I can’t drive over to see a show in wicker park with my fellow chi-town artists. Just shows me there is more room for me to grow as a friend, brother and son. I am challenged to constantly reach out and say “what up?”, or constantly post pictures and videos of my crew so my family in Chi-town can see them. Out of sight, out of my mind shouldn’t exist for me. But rather push myself to be available to all my distant peeps.

We are all constantly growing, learning, dreaming and living. The day we stop that process, the things that wage war against growth, lessons, dreams and living will begin to eat away at our bones and quickly lead us to our death bed.I wanna constantly live and grow. As my  1773 friends in chi town would say, “Constant Motion”.

-fuser+

“i should write a book”…Who would read it?