Yep. I’m not. I am far from it. I can’t stop dreaming, or thinking of ways to better this world. Before I even dream of that, I think of how I can change first before changing the planet I am in. I can’t just accept that I simply exist. That can’t and will not make sense in my head, heart and soul. I walk around just thinking and thinking. I stop to eat and think some more. I am no longer the lone ranger. The day I got married I chose to open the door to a companion, to share in this journey and in my madness. When I wake up in the morning I am thankful to God for the air running through my lungs, the oxygen running through my brain. 2nd I think of how much I love my wife and would do anything for her. 3rd I think of Diego and the legacy I must leave for him, the torch he and my other children will carry towards the next family. I am crazy for the teachings of Christ. He was hardcore. It ain’t easy doing what he did…But I can try right? Its so much easier to live without him, but I’d rather take the challenge. I have metaphoric-visions of Cities being torn and rebuilt. Rivers running through deserts, moving mountains with my knee’s, chariots of freedom filling up our streets. I see this picture of me laying in a bed, surrounded by 100′s of seed’s, celebrating a century of soul’s being free. Not a day goes by when I search for the greatest chorus, or that one moment that shifts the earth in complete orbit. I tried to write this as simple as I can, but the poet blood inside forces me to rhyme. To think this is only the beginning, of a promise made to me, 4 years ago by a God sent unexpectedly. If it wasn’t for a failure disguised with destiny,Chi-town leading back down south we would surely never meet. If it wasn’t for this ocean blowing in my ear, the thought of leaving you behind… never in a million years. I have stopped the debate and reasons for disasters because walking down this broken path has been showing me your answers. Freedom is at hand, a revolution here awaits, healing is a phone call away, watch, don’t blink and wait… see it happen. Its all coming together like a rubiks cube. Who would’ve thought it’d be here, here with you. Today I woke up and I had a random thought, I think I’ve been in abe’s, moises’, noahs’, Josephs’, davids shoes… Today was random like that. 2008 is gonna be crazy, hold on thru the ride!
I just don’t feel normal, I’m sure many see it too…Maybe its just, how its meant to feel. Maybe its how Jesus felt, when he was down here.